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Happy Holidays and NO MORE SCHOOL.

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 21, 2009, 5:04 PM

[link] : Had to post this cuz it made me smile on a shitty day. Much love to 21 and 24.
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Have a good holiday everyone, if I don't talk to you beforehand

Mah Buddies

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Mood: Neutral
Listening to: System of a Down... my security blanket
Reading: Wheel of Time series
Watching: Cats 101
Playing: pack everything at the last minute
Eating: nothing
Drinking: Earl Grey, hot.

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Happy Holidays

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 16, 2009, 6:15 PM

[link] : Had to post this cuz it made me smile on a shitty day. Much love to 21 and 24.
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Nargh.

Tired. Ready for the semester to be over. My Finals FINALLY start this Friday at 8am (and it takes me an hour to get to school on a good day) and end after my final on Monday. Next morning Chris and I fly down to Texas to visit the fam. At this point, none of it can honestly happen soon enough. This time of year always managed to get my insides tied in a knot whether or not anything stressful is actually happening.

I've idiotically started rereading the Wheel of Time series, like I have time for that. I want to have fresher memories of what's going on so I can read the latest book in the series with some sort of understanding. I've started rping at Dragonmount[dot]com 's Black Tower Division again, though unfortunately I don't know anyone so I feel like it's going to take forever for my little Soldier to become a full Asha'man. Again, not like I really have time, but I miss rping and can't stay on late enough to sync with any of my friends anymore.

Did I mention I'm tired? Yeah. I'm going to go watch Donnie Darko and sip some hot Earl Grey and let the cats warm my feet. Eff studying for now.

later.

Mah Buddies

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Mood: Depressed
Listening to: Jets from BWI vectoring over my apartment
Reading: The Great Hunt by Robert Jordan (RIP)
Watching: Donnie Darko sp edition
Playing: clarinet - until my face fell off
Eating: nothing in this damn house TO eat.
Drinking: Earl Grey, hot. Picard you are the man.

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Oh Em Gee, Happy

Journal Entry: Sat Sep 5, 2009, 5:48 PM

((this is going to be long, because it feels like a lot has happened since the last journal... and it will probably be awhile before my next update anyways since I'm about to be ridiculously busy

)).

haHA, hurHUR HUR

I need this feeling that I have had over the past week to last, I really really do. I know that my schedule it going to be killer, and the work will be hard, but I am so looking forward to throwing myself into this thing body, mind, and soul. Not being depressed for no reason will be a big helper there.

So I had my first clarinet lesson on Wednesday, and really like Dr. Spece, he seems cool. He sent me an email that I only just read, asking me if I had room in my schedule to join the Clarinet Choir (Master Class I think is it's formal name?) and said that he thought that I could be a "huge help" to the group. A help??? *upon reading this mentally flails around giggling like a maniac...only in my head lol but still* I've been practicing the new books he had me buy, and I am REALLY excited because I'm picking things up better and sounding better than I think I ever did in high school. And being invited to join the ensemble makes me really happy because I always loved hearing pieces with multiple instruments come together, it's so fun.

My other classes also seem like they are going to be interesting and fun. For once in my life, I think taking a 16 credit hour semester is going to be more than doable. I already met two other girls in my math class who I conversed with about the teachers and school I just transferred from (and whose math department I still work in part-time), and who share the same math enthusiasm that I have. We were all surprised that our Dif Eqns class actually has SIXTY PEOPLE in it, but I think we'll be okay. The only other class I've been in that's larger is a class that comes earlier in the day and has nearly 200 Freshmen. I think I'd be overwhelmed except for that fact that they all look cute and tiny and nervous lol.

Both of my jobs are going extremely well. I leave directly from classes and go to one job or the other, depending on what day it is. The Math Computer Lab has been buzzing, but not overwhelming in the least (and I'm allowed to work on homework in there when no one needs assistance), and it's comforting that I can still visit my old school and talk with the profs and the secretary and some other students who I've come to know. My other job is at a local art store called Art Things, and some of the employees I have known nearly as long as I've lived in this state. Not to mention that my liddle

works there now too. When I worked there yesterday from 12-6, I realized that even though I very much value my alone time, that at least a lot of the not-alone time I have is spent surrounded by people who I am quite comfortable with and who are very supportive. I even spent an hour helping some random customer yesterday, and even though he hadn't bought anything when he left (though I'm positive that he'll be back to get the things we talked about), I felt really good getting to talk and help with some of the things I really love. Having people ask me for advice on things (we had 3 people come in this week for gilding supplies! o.o) is really kinda cool, I feel like things I may have stumbled through and mistakes I might have made could make things smoother for someone else.

And finally, migraines suck. Somehow, despite the large number of migraines I've had lately, I'm still managing to keep things together. I'm not sure exactly why I am suddenly having a rush of them over the past couple of weeks (I'm going to read the thingses you sent Amber XD) but I know without the prescription I'm on they'd be unbearable. I can really tell when they're coming because I just feel like the next person who looks at me funny might just get their face ripped off with my claws, and usually it makes me fairly depressed and unnecessarily fatigued. Perhaps it's time to visit a neurologist soon, who knows. I consider myself extremely lucky that I have a prescription that heads most of them off these days, because in the past nothing and I mean nothing would work. I can live with a day of being cranky and somewhat less productive if I just remind myself that I used to be absolutely bed-ridden and would puke until my eyes had bruises around them if I turned my head too often. And no recent ER visits either. It could definitely be worse. <3

Mah Buddies

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Mood: Zest
Listening to: Mystery Diagnosis playing in the background
Reading: new sheet music, and German Vocab
Watching: nuttin'
Playing: clarinet - until my face fell off
Eating: a little bit of dark chocolate that Kim gave me
Drinking: Dr. Pepper >:F I love you Pepper

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August of Dewm and Yay School Prospects

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 25, 2009, 8:10 AM

The New Semester is Almost Here!

I'm so jealous lol, though I know that in a couple of months I will be dog tired and ready for change. Last night was my first night back at the Mathlab because AACC started back to classes yesterday (and I don't til next week). My friend Nick came in and was working on homework and looking through papers etc. so yeah I was jealous lol. We still have two classes that are the same, despite taking them at different schools, so I look forward to us still getting to argue over math until we figure out the answer. I helped about 20 people figure out that the classroom they were looking for was not in fact in the building and had to describe how to get all over campus. It was fun.

HaHA, I laugh at you children and your getting-lost-ways. (Like I still don't get lost at UMBC lol)

While all that was going on, I surfed my school site and I ended up thinking that I might just want to add a Minor in Music to my list of school endeavors (along with my math minor, my original Mechanical Engineering Major, and an Art Major I'm making a portfolio for). I wrote back and forth with one of the clarinet profs there and ended up getting permission to add to my schedule a weekly hour long practice session. I had thought I might audition for the Wind Ensemble next week, but I came to learn that their meeting time was not so convenient for my work schedule. Besides which I will be bending over backwards as it is. For now I'll stick with the private hour sessions and we'll see where to go from there. A music Minor is not difficult judging by their criteria on the website, and it will be yet another welcome way to blow off some steam from MUCH harder classes. I practiced for an hour today and my face HURTS lol, but I find the audition piece I printed out to be easy and likable.

So that leaves me signed up for 16 credits for this Fall semester. Music, more math, two engineering classes, and German. It's going to be fun, I'm hoping it won't kick my ass to the curb lol. And somewhere in there, I'm going to have to find time to keep my art up.

CHOW: This week is my last week to finish my two pieces for a team endeavor that I'm doing over at ConceptArt.org, so I plan on having those to submit soon as well. Down to tha wire.

Mah Buddies

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Mood: Optimism
Listening to: my cat quacking at me, literally
Reading: new sheet music
Watching: Outbreak was on tv but I shut it off.
Playing: clarinet - until my face fell off
Eating: ...maybe I should do that. I keep forgetting.
Drinking: Dr. Pepper >:F I love you Pepper

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August, Go Away.

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 22, 2009, 11:49 AM

RAWR...

So when somebody with major chronic health problems tells you that they are striving towards a goal, like you are... Do you tell them that basically the stress is too much for them to handle, they should go live on a shelf somewhere and be coddled and not live the way they want to live and decide that they're not allowed to dream as big as everybody else because it might be harder for them? What a fucking crock of shit.

Whoever the hell you are who said that to my friend, I would not think twice about decking you over the GD head at this moment. Who the fuck do you think you are??

It's no wonder I want absolutely nothing to do with people when I leave the house lately. People just feed on being shitty to each other anymore. What a pack of assholes.

[Aug 20] It's Just Too Damn Hot and Sticky...

...Though I DO enjoy the thunderstorms we've been getting. I locked myself out of the apartment at 8:30 two mornings ago. After 8 hours of sleep, I was still too groggy and stupid to remember to bring my keys with me LOL. By the time my boyfriend came home to let me in, I was sweating and hot, even sitting in the shade. I hate you August.

Anyways, still trying to cram some art into the time I've got left before school takes over my life again. I need to get my oils out again today while the light's good and work on the self portrait some more. I also have finally gotten to the sculpting part of my first sculpture. It's a velociraptor, which I plan on adding feathers and a sweet paint job to when I've got it baked.. maybe some flames along the sides. No? We'll see.

I spent last night looking up Sleep Clinics in my area, checking out costs and whatnot (sleep studies are NOT cheap o.o

. I'd say in the last 24 hours, at least 16 of those hours I spent asleep, I'm thinking more like 18 even. That would be more than 2/3 of my day spent unconscious, and I still spend a lot of my time feeling like a nap would be nice. My average this week remains about 12 hours a day. That's still too much.

I've always had trouble getting up and being tired throughout the day. Even when mania strikes and I sleep so much less than usual, it's still like five or six hours... Which is like half of what I'd be doing otherwise. I figure I should get it looked at, if nothing else. I know that I do a lot of jerking and moving around, that's probably all it is.